Slowed Down

Something so huge, life altering, so scary slowed down into what felt like it was being rewound by an outside source. In my mind I wasn’t doing anything but trying to save my baby. While holding an AK-47 to a man’s head on his knees in front of me. This was what holding the universe together looked like. And in this moment of slowing down I sweat I was the only one actually being slowed. For the first time in my life I was completely self-aware. What are humans to a rock or a mountain? Nothing. Trying so hard to hold my universe together. Trying to be perfect I realized I couldn’t fix everything, do everything. I am nothing compared to my son’s mountain.

-Verna Sealey