Witnessing

Pure Creations true realities, true nightmares all formed into a routine.What are my pure creations when I tutor. Explaining concepts to others who have difficulty in understanding pure realities... Being in prison. Count, work call, file this, errand there, sweep, with added jobs of pass out the supplies retrieve papers from officer. Count, chow, shower, relax (but not for long) count, time to relax and catch up in assignments. Want water count, finally peace & quiet. Time to put in the ear buds and try to write about however I feel. It's my only way to vent, Then sleep out only for a few hours 5:30AM comes early. Pure nightmares... All my life I have had the same fear that I have not overcome. I am a very shy person. I do not like to speak to you or approach you if I do not know you. I have a nightmare of what will I do when I leave because my closed-off-ness has only escalated over the last two years. I cannot speak to a group of people without becoming red, tongue tied, and BP rising. I do have nightmares of what will I do when I get out & try to obtain employment. I have to obtain the ability to overcome my obstacles.

Routines are more than daily activities. Routines are a mixture of pure creations. Creations of how I approach those I tutor help. I have my own style of doing things. Routines have true realities and nightmares realities are everything. Count, Count, Count!!! reality but also a true nightmare. What to do, when to do it, and how to do it, those are the questions. Work call, a reality, but also an escape from within its own reality. Distractions/Disruptions are in every aspect of my life. This sentence is a disruption of my life from the outside. Ignorance, or shall I say Ignorant people are a distraction you come. Don't walk around pretending to know everything when you know absolutely Nothing!

-Ann Marie Blair