Remember

I remember, it was a very hot day, and my skin felt as if it was being soaked in grease, but the vibrance of my father’s company was refreshing in my mind. It was the last time I was going to him. His smile, when it’s aimed in your direction, can stop everything around you. The guy is one of a kind. As I am taking this hour and a half drive towards him, my mind was racing rapidly. Thoughts of drifting past, with the cars that are speeding by. In my head it wasn’t my reality. It wasn’t my future yet. (5 years). I will not see him again for five years. I was too numb to register the pain that was building inside me. Today as I look back on that last time I saw him, it’s like a volcano has erupted in me over the last years. Often in lucid states, I am there. Doing it all over again.

I want to forget pain. I want to forget sorrow. I want to forget struggles and in this moment, I want to be free. The beauty that sits next to me often helps me forget all the burdens of the world. Time stops and I enjoy just what it is I am forgetting.

-Veronica Lane